LITTLE SOULDIER GIRL
I am in a flux of emotion battling inside seeking out a greater resolution. I am disconnected, bored, and rhetorical while I reach out for a taste of the bigger picture. My intellect has grasped it and now it is time for my heart to connect with the lessons I have learned. I can feel this blockage this sickness this sha chi which engages my solar plexus in a world of words and thoughts. Do I write? Do I photograph? Do I feng shui myself to a success I dreamed of as a little girl.
It seems as if my prior plans were disrupted by destiny and fate and I am in a limbo between what I thought I wanted and what my soul now needs. Where do I begin? Will this process overtake my creative eye and who will show me the fruits of my success. I know it is I who posses the gift I ask for and coming to terms with my heart and mind will eventually bridge the gap between this world and that.
Am I taking a step backwards or just facing the inevitable standstill that occurs in life and will this transformation be ready when I am? I am hot, humid and suffering form indecisiveness. I am short and wise and brave enough to carry on yet my heart is pulling in another direction, not because of its desire for something different but because I have always have had to have my head lead to keep control and now I want to set myself free.
Free form this and free from that free from worry and comparisons and self-doubt. Free from reality and the material possessions it requires of you. Free from concern and sickness and punishment.
I am a little solider in this giant army world and I know that a new time is dawning. I feel myself on the horizon and I am now ready to release, lay my head back and enjoy the effervescent sherbet colored sunrise.